Ultrasound pics...

...of the miracle can now be found on my Swedish blog Making lemonade. Everything looked completely normal and it was so much fun to see the little miracle move around in there. I can now also feel it moving. :) I'm now at week 19 + 2 so almost at half time.

Quick update

I currently don't write much on this blog. Instead I use my Swedish blog Making lemonade. If you use Google translate you can get most of what's going on even though it doesn't work perfectly.

A lot of things have happened since the last post here. The big thing is that I am pregnant - currently 10 weeks and 5 days. I have also had the flu shot so I don't have to worry about that anymore. I have seen a specialist in maternity care and we seem to agree that a c-section is the best way for me to deliver the baby so that's a huge weight off my chest. I will attend both regular maternity care and specialist care. Because of my problems with the venous blood flow in my right leg (due to that leg being partly paralyzed) I may need to take anti coagulating shots during and after pregnancy but they haven't decided on that yet. The specialist also said it should be ok for me to nurse despite the medicines I am on.

I'm also doing cognitive behavioral therapy this fall and there's plenty there for me to work with. :P

So there you have it - a quick update. :)

Frustrating news

So we've wanted to become parents for years. But we've waited because of my health issues. We were really close to being able to start trying to conceive now, but then this flu thing happened. I have now consulted with my old neurologist and his suggestion is that I get vaccinated and then wait a couple of months before trying to conceive. This means we'll have to wait at least till the beginning of next year. I think the whole vaccination business is a bit scary since I have had an autoimmune reaction before (the paralysis condition) but then again I reacted to a virus and not a vaccine that time. This time they are considering pregnant women a risk group and will start by vaccinating this group. My neurologist however was of the very strong opinion that pregnant women should not be vaccinated during the first 24 weeks. He is an expert on the neurological development of children so I will go with his advice. But it's sure frustrating to have to wait - AGAIN.

Not in the best of moods today

My body is acting up. Some bladder emptying issues and other problems. It's happened before and it usually goes away after a few days but it is still annoying. I will probably call and talk to a OB/GYN nurse to get some advice and see if they think I should have a checkup. I have some stuff I want to discuss with them anyway so it might be a good idea. We'll see. I tend to not be able to focus very well on other things requiring my attention when my body acts up so I think it's best to deal with it and get it out of the way so that I don't have to be preoccupied with it.

I plan to spend this evening cuddled up on the sofa with my hubby eating something delicious (haven't decided what yet) and watching tv. I don't watch that much tv but Tuesdays are good tv days, currently with both English crime series (Foyle's war), "Anne of Greengables" and "So you think you can dance".

I hope the physical issues clear up really soon so I feel better both physically and mentally/emotionally. That's part of my prayers for today.

Long weekend :)

We're going home to my parents this evening and staying there until Sunday. A little break. :) Then I hope I'll have energy for a week of work. Hope you'll have a great weekend. (Stacey - hope you'll have a good start to your work week.;))

Something that came to me

A phrase or concept came to me the other day: "If you want more, then use what you have." I have no idea where it came from, it just popped up in my head and I think it's true. If we don't use what we have already why would we get more? We might just end up wanting more and more but never using anything. All things aren't black and white and sometimes we may very well need more to get the strength or see the possibilities of doing something with what we have, but many times I think we're making excuses and just waiting for things to get perfect before we do anything. It's all or nothing. I have a lot of excuses myself, and some of them are valid, but they're excuses all the same and the frame of mind I am in when I make excuses rarely seems very constructive. So I'm working on it (or perhaps more accurately trying to learn to let God work on it i me).

A miracle :)

I believe the Lord has performed a miracle in my life. I bet you get curious but I feel this is something I want to take to my heart and really feel confident in before I share it with anyone. :) But I still felt I wanted to share this much with you. I'm an analytical and skeptical person (too much for my own good sometimes) so this is a big thing for me. I've felt changes within me many times before, but nothing this big. This is special.

Praise the Lord!